January 2010
somebody went to the bridal show today :D got some prices, met some people. i’m thoroughly stoked about my wedding now. i am going to try verrry hard to keep the price in our budget, but we may need to go over. depending on what i can find the videographer and photographer for. who knows! ooo, my parents rented Inglorious Bastards and it’s phenomenal. the soundtrack especially adds a...
all the pieces have finally almost fallen into place. my life for the last three days have been FULLTIME.WEDDINGPLANNING.NEWJOB.WEDDINGSTUFF. ridiculous and i’m afraid i’m going to get burnt out SUPER fast. but with my fingers crossed and best friends at my side, i think it will all be ok. but i’m so sick, already, of thinking and talking about this - so let’s highlight...
my day has completely turned around. i went from having to start over from point a (i was placed in the wrong major and none of my majors from the past year transfer…) to almost being certain of a great full time job and ACTUALLY getting married next january!! my fiance will be continuing his education and finishing school in the next few years and once he’s done, we plan to work...
i am in another period of depression; i would rather curl up in my bed to cry and sleep than go to school. i have been working to be a health care major (to be a medical biller and coder) and later on work on an english degree. i just want to get life started instead of swimming circles at this worthless school. and i just found out today that NONE of my classes are going toward the degree i NEED...
dying was not on my list of things to do today…sometimes i wish that the terrible drivers in my area WOULD hit me because my car has a steel frame. i will be just fine; THEY are the ones who will suffer. i’m still shaking from the drive home. someone didn’t see me and started merging into my lane from the left side - when i was a few feet from them. to the right i have a truck...
new future on the horizon?
i just applied for a full time job at St. Mary’s. and i have another pending for an online business. i am scared out of my mind..and yet completely intrigued. i am a moth near a flame; but is the flame an illusion or fatal? only time and curiousity shall tell.
it is days like this when i cannot bring myself to be productive. i just want to take my camera and drive out to everywhere, anywhere, and capture the significance of the world. yet, i am here. in front of this terrible screen, damned to do homework until my phalanges rot and fall away accordingly. i am registered in a hybrid document processing class…what a mistake. everything that could go...
“writing is easy. all you do is stare at a blank page until drops of blood form...”
– Gene Fowler
when you have the words, they get squished together and the beauty is broken. but maybe, it is in their broken nature that they have never been more perfect.